Good morning my readers! If you couldn't already tell from the title of this post I'm here to announce that I am officially pregnant with baby number 1! It feels so good to finally get it out in the open! I have been keeping it a secret for so long but now I can share my experience with you guys. So basically I always knew that I wanted to be a mom, even way back when I was a little girl playing with my dolls. I knew at the time that I was just playing pretend, but I remember thinking to myself "someday I'll have real kids of my own". Someday always seemed so far away to me. When I was a kid I used to think that people in their 20's were old. Years went by and before I knew it I was a teenager and I was convinced that I knew exactly how my life was going to go. I had it all planned out. I was going to meet someone within the next year or two, fall in love, get married and start having kids in my early twenties. My husband would go out to work and I would be a stay at home Mom/writer of best selling fiction. It was the perfect plan. For or those of you who have been keeping up with my blog or who know me personally, you know that's not exactly how my life turned out. First of all I didn't meet my husband until I was 25 almost 26! Sure I dated a lot of guys, but none of them really gave me what I really needed, what I was really looking for. I wanted a guy who was confident and funny. Someone I could trust completely. Someone who had my back and who was on my team. I didn't think it would take so long to find someone like that, but it did. At first I was angry that I had to wait so long. For years I felt like I had to sit back and watch everyone else move on with their lives while I was stuck in the same spot. I watched so many people get married before me, have kids before me and Although I was happy for them. I couldn't help but wonder... when was it going to be my turn? I didn't realize this until recently but it is so much better to wait until you're a little older to get married. When you are in your 30's you are so much smarter and mature and you have so much more wisdom of the world then when you were in you're 20's still trying to figure everything out. All the people I know who got married in their early 20's, they're not married anymore. It's because no one is really ready at that time of their life. I have worked full time since I was 18 years old. Part of me loves working because I'm so good at my job and I know that no one can do it better than me. It's nice to feel needed, but on the other hand sometimes I worry too much about the job, sometimes I just very tired, and sometimes I wish I could just take a break. A long 6 month break lol. Mostly though I wish I just had more time to myself. I wish I had more time to write, more time to relax and more time with my family. During my 20's the idea of having kids seemed impossible. Partly because it took so long to find the right guy, but even after I found him and we moved in together there was still something else I wanted. I wanted to be married. Right after we got married I had really bad baby fever. I had just turned 30 and I was now a married woman, it finally seemed like the right time but then I would look around at my one bedroom apartment I knew there was still one more thing I needed before the baby could come. So my husband and I after five months of looking finally found our house. We got settled in and now it was finally time to start trying. I went to every doctor to ask questions and make sure I was healthy and ready to conceive. When I spoke to my OBGYN he told me that because I was on birth control for so long that it might take me a little longer to get pregnant. This scared me because I never really thought that I would have a problem getting pregnant. This made me want to try as soon as possible because I didn't want to waste any time. I talked to friends, family members and co-workers and asked them their pregnancy experiences and was it hard for them to conceive after birth control. No two stories were the same. Some said they got pregnant right away, others said it took a few months and some said it took years! I didn't know what to expect. I got an ovulation kit and started tracking when I was ovulating. After the first month I was so excited to take a pregnancy test because I really thought I had a good shot of being pregnant, but after I saw the big, fat negative flash over the tiny screen I was more disappointed then ever. I tried again the second month. This time I told myself not to get my hopes up and to prepare to see another negative reading. At this point I was convinced it was going to take some time to get pregnant. A day day before my period was due my stomach felt very weird. Almost like it was flip, flopping around. I had never had that feeling. I trying so hard to wait until after my period was due to take a test, but I just had to know! I told myself "don't get too excited, it's probably going to be negative again." This time I used the test with the lines. Almost immediately after I peed on the stick and place it on the counter of the sink two lines appeared! I stared at it for a long time. I took a picture of it with my phone. I knew I saw two lines but I didn't believe it! I decided I needed more proof. I drank a ton of water and took another test. Two lines showed up again! I still didn't believe it. "This whole box must be defected I need to go get more." I made a trip to the store and got a box of the digital pregnancy tests. Took a third pregnancy test and sure enough it said "pregnant". I was so happy! The next day I went to the bakery and got a giant chocolate chip cookie awith the words "you're going to be a dad " written on it. He was very excited too!
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